Anger Reflects Values
My Anger Reflects My Values
if you’re asking yourself: What does that even mean? What I mean is…
When something upsets me, the least I can do is figure out why, what that says about what I focus on, & who & what I love. ❤️
Sometimes I just can’t help being incredibly volatile & fight for the things that are important to me.
I’m fueled by flames greater than me, fueled by energy of “warrior” in my name. I’ve tried to fight it, tried to fight the fighter in myself.
I have worked to tamper my own flames, to quiet my own voice, to fit in & survive. I have self-deprecated in the projected inflammation of feeling divisive, always creating "too much" chaos & conflict. Both being too much, saying too much.
But the truth is deeper than the projections people try to drape onto me. Projections— these thick cloaks thrown over my head — aren’t me, they aren’t mine. I don’t have to accept anything thrown onto me that I don’t want.
As a Taurus rising, I’m ruled by Venus. & Venus isn’t known for wrath, she’s known for beauty, love, sensuality. Conditioning says Beauty isn’t supposed to be full of wrath…
But the truth is, in my energy charts, the stars, there’s the pattern, a “requirement” of friction for growth, intimacy & connection. It says it right there, so I don’t have to fight myself or dampen or be less.
It also says there’s energy for self-mastery through periods of chaos.
There’s also the painful shocks of initiation into awareness, for both myself & others.
These are things I can’t turn off, even when I go hiding, in my 12th house, at home, or on the other side of the universe, in my dreams.
I’m still learning to process the kickback I feel from the channel of initiation— to not personalize the feelings when people put things on me that aren’t mine to wear.
My fire Aries Sun & Mercury, both in the 12th house, are fueled by airy Venus in the 2nd 🌬🔥& ruled by airy Mars Aquarius in the 10th.
Mars Aquarius in the 10th always sees the big picture— who gets left out at whose expense. Venus Gemini in the 2nd loves to commune & finds value in connection, communication & touch. Plus, since my Aries Mercury is ruled by Venus Gemini, Gemini blows more air 🌬🔥 on my hot tongue.
I can’t help who I am to a degree; I was born with purpose: I am me, intentionally, even if I don’t always see or understand why. I can tamper & dampen & tame, but these are secondary states.
I can’t change the fire in me, & I can’t change what fires me up.
A fighter is a fighter. & fire 🔥 requires expression 🔥 to channel & fuel passion constructively.
Amelia Quint describes Venus in Gemini as a chaotic bombshell; or as Meghan Fox licking the flame of a lighter in Jennifer’s body.😂🔥 which I have to say I love. The chaotic good- the beauty in chaos.
My work is in trying to be gentler, overall, in general. To allow myself to be seen. To cool flames that might burn & shame. To bring the cooling touch of love to the firey flames of war. To temper wrath & rage with mercy & compassion. To channel the process, to ease the landing, is to accomplish greater growth.
I find compassion in the existence of all things, because everything that exists is a miracle— to happen, to hap, is to be miraculous, as Donald Revell says.
Dare to get a little bit vulnerable with me? ❤️
If so, please share:
What’s something that’s made you angry lately?
& then here’s something for you to reflect on, in a journal, with me or with others:
How does your anger reflect both your values & your Love?